"The reaction to my long-term partner, Neelam, on receiving the news of my illness shook and startled me in the extremity of its distress. This was love of quite another order and although I never doubted my love for Neelam, the nature of that love changed quite dramatically. In short, I fell in love all over again but on a new and deeper plain. I discovered I could give myself up to love in a way I had never had before because I was certain my feelings were returned. I could moon about like some crappy-faced teenager and not feel the slightest embarrassment. And that gave me a glorious feeling of liberation. "